a small gesture of love is enough to break all barriers of hate.. :)

Sometimes all that it takes is a small word against you to turn up the anger in you. Some days are really bad...but some are wonderful..Only when you face those bad days do u realize the happiness which the good days bring...

Well, today was one of those bad days for me. Exams were on... its but obvious that you tend to get all tenst up and nervous. This tension itself takes you to a world of complete irritation. Two papers one after the other felt like Hiroshima and Nagasaki bombing on me. Two of the worst papers on planet earth! I expected a lot from the papers but turned out to be completely opposite. The papers were done at 2:30...I should have realized that it was just the beginning of my horrific day.

Next terror awaiting me was in the bus stop. Well, the purse I adored from the bottom of my heart got stolen. I felt half dead. Numbness is the only thing I could sense in my whole body... All this got into me which gave rise to miserable splitting head ache. It felt as if time stood still. Weird to feel all this just for a purse.. I wasn’t even worried about the money in the purse. All that bothered me was that i lost my purse which i loved!

The last thing that I had to face was my past! Today was just so wrong! I tried my best to avoid the jerk about whom I spoke in my 1st blog. But no, everything that shouldn’t happen was supposed to happen today. So, as expected...he comes up to talk to me..Even those few minuets of talking to him got me crazy!! He was the last thing I wanted to see today!!!!

The only place I can go with all these problems is my house. Well, bless my mom to be at home today! The 1st thing i wanted was a tight hug from her to regain the lost life in me. Surprisingly she wasn’t mad at me. According to her, only by making such mistakes can I improve myself. Well, I don’t disagree with her... She somehow has the ability to bring back the lost me...

She could see how sad I was. Even though I didn’t show it out..She asked me to take a nap and regain the lost energy..She as usual went off for shopping. Now she is out...She just texted me to check the bag which is kept close to the shoe rack..The best and sweetest thing that I could ever see today cropped up..Wrapped  in a plastic cover was another purse which looks exactly the same as my older one!!!
This small gesture of care is more than enough for me to forget every stupid thing that has happened with me today! The only thing that I can realize now is that I have one person with me...who cares for me immensely...I promise that I will never let you down mom... I always have always respected you and always will....LOVE YOU MOM  :)

COLLEGE LIFE!!

Well...the 1st few days were filled with exitement. Bunking was something i had never done in school...thats why it was something really different for me..I always wanted to know why people loved bunking, I wanted to know what they did after bunking. I was eagerly waiting for college to start because of the fun people have in there...I used to be somehow really proud to say that i am in college. My inner mind will speak.."ïm finally out of school!! i'm finally out of the strict environment! i can do whatever i want! i get freedom...in short...ive grown up!! "But then one has to wake up from his dream someday or the other..!! There are two sides of a coin...college can be real fun,but at the same time it can be realllyyyyy horrible....
After a few days of college...i came to terms with things going around me.Everything was confusing and freaking me out.Whatever was happening around me was completely new and different.For a few days i felt so lost in between 120 students!!! I didnt know how to use the newly got freedom.All of a sudden I understood what 'growing up' means...its not that fun after all! Various responsibilities croped up on me.
The teachers dont care a damn for you like what the teachers in school used to do.I mean,they dont even try to mingle with the students!!! All the teachers have this standard work to do in college... 1-enter the class...2-blabber something really stupid...3-and leave the class by putting the students to sleep....Thats when i understood the importance of 'bunking'!! Its better to sit outside college in the buring afternoon heat with your friends rather than get into the world of boredom sitting infront of a teacher who dosent care a shit about you...Some of the teachers are just not supposed to be where they are....Bunking is fun...no doubt...but later the concequences you have to face is terrible!! Its like offering a child her favorite chocolate and taking it away before the kid could even taste it...!!

The only thing that keeps you going those few hours of torture are the FRIENDS you have!! Without them I bet I will end up in coma....seriously!! Actually speaking...there is hardly anything good about college other than making new friends....My college somehow didnt satisfy my expectations...but anyhow..i try to keep myself happy with the things i have..Students from other colleges(colleges which are not as strict as my college is) keep telling me how unlucky I am to end up in this college..they tell me I dont have a college life to enjoy..Everytime I try to see something bright about college life..one ass surely comes up telling me how unlucky i am to study in such a strict college...and eventually pull me down again.. :\  Well...there are always such jerks.............afterall...its the truth...and its bitter....anyways,this is getting more and more intresting.Everyday is different and complicated...hmmm...maybe this is how it is supposed to be.
The worst or maybe the best part of college life still awaits me...if you didnt get that..it means that ive yet to fall in love..anyways..ciao for now..lets hope everything goes fine in college and things settle down.. :)

1st day of college!!!!!!

Like any other teenager,I had high hopes for college!!! Talking about college really exited the hell outta me!! And the last 6 months made me more desprate to go to college.FINALLYYYYY!!! The day came!! My 1st day of college!! one part of me was damn worried if i could actually come out of my shell and talk to unknown people...My girl friends would deciede among themselves what to wear for the 1st day. But i am not one of those sorts. I suddenly started getting a feeling if im different from them..I mean,what intrests girls mainly is not of any great intrest to me...Anyways...where were we,the college....yeahh!!
To start it off....I was soo worried and tenst for the 1st day......... that i caught the wrong bus.. (O_o) That gave me even more of tension. My college was supposed to start at 12 15pm and it was already 11 30pm..and i had not yet got a bus. Finally,I caught a rickshaw...The great indian traffic got me into more of a pannic! Even Kane West coudent help me out with his songs.. :P To add on to the tension and fustration,it started to rain...................(+_+) Wht else could have happened to ruin my day??!!!??!! I didnt want to be late for my 1st lecture in college...and luckily i wasent!!!!!! I still cant believe how i could reach there at 12 !! Huffing and puffing i entered class...
One of my fears of making friends with new people broke apart!!! Im really happy about that!! I cant believe that ive made sooo many  friends in just one day...! Finally i can say that ive broken out from my shell. I can easily speak to now people and make friends!! The teachers were one hell of a pain!! All of them enter the class saying the same old story,"do not bunk any lecture. 11th std is very important.Behave in the college.Be up to date with all that we teach you.Do not play around with your life at 11th.Concentrate on studies...."and it goes on and on and on and on .......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well,it will take a bit of time to get accostomed to their way of teaching...but it was funn.. (^_^) I love my classroom aloootttt!!! Its really big and airy. Space to breathe!!! Its something that ive not seen in my schooldays..maybe thats why i find it soo different,intresting and amusing :D ..I sometimes wonder why do the colleges have such big classrooms when students are gonna bunk?? I mean,half of the classroom is empty...Well,whatever it is...Im really happy to have a good start..I just hope my college days will go on this way...with mannny more friends!!! Im loving this aloott!! Finally im satisfied that i have come out of my shell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!! :D

the best of the "6 months"i had...!!

At start,things were looking very exiting!! I had made great plans for my vacations!! My to do list looked something like this:
1- gotta loose weight!!
2- start with drawing
3- remove flab from your body.....
4- enjoy with friends
5- SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, I must say i could surely complete some parts of my to do list...I could complete my point no. 2,4 and 5!!
The best part of my vacations were that i could sleep for hours and hours together without my mom shouting at me "wake up!! you've to study for your exams!!" I would roam around with my frnds the rest of the day. And the remaining time will be spent on facebook. :P Life felt like heaven to me!!! Carefree life!! i loved it that way..!! But this was the 1st phase of my "6 months"vacations...

In the second part of the vacations...things started to get boring! Everyone will have their status update as "damn bored of being bored." A sedentary kinda life got me to gain more weight...thats the worst part of the vacations!! Everyone was gonig through the sameee bored feeling...This was the time when i met many new friends. Though they were online friends,they made(even now make) really good pals!!! This was the period when i started making brotherly relations with guys. I started getting really possesive about one of my "so called brother"and he turned out to be the biggest jerk in the whole wide world!! But yeah..to cover it up for him,i had made another sweet brother. He's mature enough and can totally understand me. Ive made many more awesome friends!!!!!! I love all my friends alottt!! They mean alot to me. Friends were the only thing that made life a bit interesting for me in this 2nd phase of the vacations....

The 3rd phase of the vacations started with boredom as usual...but for me,life changed drastically! Life took a completely new turn! No one was even prepared for it. A sudden attack took away my grandmom. I was already half killed with my jerky brother's attitude. This completely devastated me. It was hard to pull myself back and move on with life. I had my sister to support. I can never see her cry. I never cried jst so that i could help her out of her lonliness. But yeah.. you have no other option but get strong and move on. This part of my vacations was filled with only confusion!! I suddenly had to do many other jobs which i never had done in my life before! Its like, everything is comming right at you...all together and strong!! It was hard to manage at start.But now,im completely stabalized. I knw wht i am doing. I know to do many more jobs than facebook and sleeping. :D

in short..these 6 months have made me a much more stronger person!! Ive lernt to move on,Ive lernt to let go,ive lernt to do some work and the best of all...ive started learning for ARCHITECTURE!! Im damn serious about my architecture. Ive never been so serious before in my whole lifetime!! It means alot to me. It means more than my friends to me. Afterall,when i didnt have my friends ... all that i had with me was my art..I can never possibly let go of it!!

This is how everything started....

Or i can say..everything ended. A strange kind of feeling in everyone's mind... We entered our classrooms.. Started interacting with the people we never even knew existed in class. Took pics of our classroom,chatted for hours with the teachers we hated...We were gonna miss all of it...The fact that schooldays were comming to an end was not at all digestable by me....I still remember that day..I entered my class and my "so called enemy" greeted me with a broad smile and screamed "good morning Aartiiii!!!!" That was never expected from her!! we used to hate the mere looks of each other.
I sat with my friend.She's like the most emotional person ive ever come across!! She started wailing out loud..and looking at her...everyone in the class started to cry.That was a shocking view for me...because ive never seen guys crying in front of the class..We had been sitting in class for eight hours like any other day.but this day went of so quickly! Those were the last "eight hours"we spent in our classroom...
The next day was the day everyone was waiting for..! FAREWELL!!!!! None of the girls could be recogonized behind the thick layer of their makeup and the longgg draping sarees. Guys were looking really handsome in their coats and blazers!! Even the nerd of our class was looking good(we never expected him to turn up for the farewell). We students used to think that our school cannot be called anything less than a miser.But when it came to the food which was served.......our opinion had to change. We were forced to play lame games!! =_=' That was really boring..people gave speeches...that was even more boring.Our principal started talking about our future and all crap...which was not less than a everyday lecture given to us by teachers and parents.I dont know how we enjoyed in between all this...............................But somehow we did.(Im unable to find out the reason how we ENJOYED) :P As and when the farewell was ending,one by one people started to cry..some cried because their crush turned em down,others cried because school was actually comming to an end...I belonged to the second category....At 3:45pm,our farewell ended.Everyone left the school premises with a heavy heart.Many people looked back at the school and started crying again(things there was looking like some kind of bollywood melodrama movie). After every 5 minutes,people start loosing control of their emotions and start crying again.I would never want to leave my school crying.And i didnt do that...I was the 'agony aunt' who tries to stop each and every person from crying.It was hard to bring them back to normal and they loose it in the next 5 minutes AGAIN...!!!!
The next day people were under control over their emotions...and you could find each and everyone's status update as "missing school miserably"or something like that....We would chat and text for hours and make promises that we will be BFF...this promise hardly works out for a few months though...so,this is how everything ended.My school life was the bestttttttteeeesssssttttt part of my life !! I dont think anything else can cover up for it.not even my childhood...
Well.....i miss my school alott.... Its been 6 months since school is over... Yesterday was teacher's day.So i was missing all the teachers in my school..Thats why i thought i'll start my first blog with how my school ended.. :D

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